The emptiness that has become too much for you
The dish has been served
Once upon a time, she sat at the table with everyone else.
She had her own thoughts, desires, dreams, and a voice that belonged only to her. But day after day, she learned to be convenient. Without even realizing it, she began giving more and more of herself to others: her time, attention, energy, and feelings.
And one day, it turned out there was no longer a place for her at the table.
Now she herself has become a serving dish, placed on the table for everyone’s use. Her existence has been reduced to a function: to be convenient, useful, accessible. She no longer sits at the table among the others—she herself becomes part of the meal, an object of consumption for others’ needs, expectations, and demands.
The pasta with pesto sauce that should be on the plate suddenly turns into a pile of little snakes, seasoned with anxiety. This is a metaphor for imposed thoughts, obligations, feelings of guilt, and other people’s voices that gradually take root inside a person and begin to be perceived as part of their own personality. They entangle the heroine, holding her in place and preventing her from freely existing outside the role imposed upon her.
The hand hovering over her head plays a special role; it only seems harmless at first glance. Its fingers literally penetrate the heroine’s head, probing her consciousness from within. This gesture becomes a visual embodiment of the expression “to get inside someone’s head.” Someone endlessly analyzes her actions, dictating how she should think, feel, and perceive herself. This foreign presence proves so pervasive that it gradually begins to supplant her own inner voice. Her lower hand supports her face, as if trying to hold onto the remnants of her personality under this constant pressure and not sink completely into this snake pit, while the burgundy background resembles a theater curtain behind which lies the familiar script of countless women’s fates.
But despite everything that is happening, the heroine’s gaze remains alive. It reveals weariness, but not defeat. It retains an awareness of her own worth and the hope that one day her thoughts will once again belong only to her.
The work raises the question of the price of constant self-sacrifice and of that moment when a person becomes so accustomed to living for others that they cease to notice their own disappearance. It speaks of the violation of personal boundaries, of the intrusion into one’s consciousness, and of the quiet resistance that continues to exist even when it seems that all that remains of a person is an imposed role.