The emptiness that has become too much for you
The other side
This is a portrait composed not according to the laws of the body, but according to the laws of inner sensation.
Here, anatomy loses its familiar logic in the interest of greater precision. The head, turned away from the viewer, disrupts the natural order of things and thereby reveals what usually remains hidden: an inner gaze existing beyond the usual orientation. This is an attempt to depict a state in which a person is no longer directly facing the world—all their attention is shifted inward, to where genuine experience is formed.
The body retains an outward composure, almost calmness, but within this calmness the very structure has already been disrupted. It still holds its form, still remains recognizable, and it is precisely here that the main tension arises: the change has not occurred on the outside, but deeper—within the very system of perception. The inner self has shifted so much that it has altered the very geometry of presence.
The frog in the palms is not a random detail here, but a living symbol of what remains unchanged amid any internal shifts. It is the embodiment of primal, intuitive, almost archaic knowledge—that natural part of consciousness that existed before language, before logic, before the attempt to explain oneself. It is a living point of support, something fragile yet genuine, held with care and attention.
The red bow at the base of the neck remains the sole deliberately decorative element—a theatrical gesture emphasizing the contrast between external form and internal displacement.
This work explores a state in which a person appears outwardly intact,
but inwardly is governed by different laws.