"A Holy Conundrum" Day #28/366 Dlawr: Photo a Day 2024 Today my dad and I got breakfast. We caught up. He told me about his life and asked about mine. We talked about France, my photography, and a million other things. He told me I would get some big shoots and I'd be fine. Afterwards I dropped him off at church and I thought about all the years he has continued steadfastly in Christianity. I used to believe and in some ways am always hopeful I could again. But at the same time, there has always been something in me that has wanted to rebel. Christianity just never fit. As much as I tried to fit in, I couldn't stop from ever dreaming of ways to get out. No matter how hard I tried it didn't seem to work for me. Every day felt like anxiety and an uphill battle in my heart and mind. So, for today I just rest. I know that I am loved. I know that I am taken care of and that this life is full of abundance. Is it Jesus? Who knows, but I know there is something out there watching over me and that gives me great delight. I hope if you're reading this and the "Cross" seems too heavy that you know there can be other ways. There are people and places that will love you just the way you are.