"Grace" Day 194/366 I have to be honest. I was today years old when I found out ADHD is technically seen as a disability. When I was 28 I had a therapist suggest I might be on the autism spectrum because of my inability to control impulses and how I seemed to be unaware of how my actions and words impacted others. I went to a neurologist and was diagnosed with ADHD, Anxiety disorder, and depression. I ended up later finding out that anxiety disorders are commonly misdiagnosed and I actually had OCD. In a way though, they are all tied. My point in saying all this? I really had no idea of the repercussions of these things. I still am in a lot of ways unaware or maybe even in denial. I've watched relationships end one after another and have made a million missteps. If i'm honest, relationships have been the hardest through all this. Being misunderstood or saying things I shouldn't or simply not knowing how to show up has been one of my biggest downfalls. Having people disappear because they felt hurt or misunderstood by me has grieved me deeply. But there is also the part of me that still doesn't understand the weight of things and that can make it all feel more confusing. ADHD feels like seeing a quiet sign and still jumping up and down and knowing you shouldn't be making noise, but still doing it anyways and wondering why people are looking at you funny. Its a thing I can't fully put into words, but also am totally aware of. So for what its worth, i'm trying my best. And I hope you will too. This picture is called "Grace".