When I created this piece I was reflecting upon a string of events that took place all within a short period of time. I lost a job , a romantic relationship , a friendship dwindled and even I moved from my downtown city apartment , that I thought was so important , back into a humble home an hour and a half away , where I would begin to build the foundation of my new life. It wasn’t just my foundation that needed some work. In addition to feeling like I was losing control over my personal and professional life , I was coming to the realization that my mindset was an area that needed some attention as well. My mindset was a jumbled mess. I had become lazy , self centered , fearful , lonely , lost… I knew in that moment , that if I ever wanted to live up to what I believe to be my higher purpose in life , I would have to start being honest with myself. I had to start being real about the patterns I kept repeating , and the impact they were having on my personal relationships , as well as my feeling of self worth. When I looked at myself in the mirror that day I told myself that nothing was going to change unless I made some changes. I decided in that moment to become the version of myself that lives underneath all the thoughts , feelings , distractions , dreams , failures , chaos and flames.